I missed out last year (we have two core groups that always go, other group got in last year, mine got in this year...typical!...though I guess we've had the best part of 20 years with us all getting in so can't really complain). Like you, I previously voluntarily took a couple of years out when my daughter was born, but watched it all the same. Anyway, knowing people there last year certainly kept my interest up, plenty of texting back and forth about various sets and feedback on what it was like in the field. I went to Pulp (+ Richard Hawley), Depeche Mode (+ Young Fathers) and Blur (+Self Esteem) in the run up to the festival (with Blur on the Saturday night of the festival), all in glorious sunshine and it certainly dampened down the disappointment! Ended up thoroughly enjoying watching it at home. So, I say embrace it, go to the party, drink, watch it with your mates, have fun and enjoy!