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Yes - We had decided we would give Glastonbury a miss this year - but the intention was to do at least a couple of others - not sure how that is going to pan out - we will see - I think my priorities have changed - yes Trudi sort of likes festivals and it has really helped her with dealing with noise and crowds but really she mostly liked them becase she missed a bit of school here and there - plus she is going to be at secondary come September and I dont want her skipping any school there if I can help it - having said that -2013 will be the last chance for her to be "free" at Glastonbury so I think we will have to do that one even if it means going on Friday. By that time she might be well into allsorts of music and begging? - maybe she will have a friend to come too - that would be Great - we shall see - so for now its a holiday to look forward to for us - my Brother moving to Barcelona to run a B & B Boat in the marina - should be nice and then a caravan hol no doubt later in the summer. I fear that maybe well and truly all we can stretch to - still a change is good as a rest - and a rest is good for a change? or something lke that ???

I did go through a bit of a downer since posting last- I am coming up I think ... I hope... its all a matter of state of mind - its amazing what you can tell yourself and believe lol - am I deceiving myself - well in the end of it who cares as long as we are happy! Health is pretty rubbish - but now the cold weather seems to be finally over - im aiming to jump back on and start back up!

Another reason for not camping/ festivaling is we have 2 outfits now in our yard and both are in a sorry state - 1 i dont want to part with for sentimental reasons and the other I hate with a passion - a rapido folding caravan hate HATE H A T E !!- I want another Dandy a light blue one with matching awning -I dont mind it being a 5 berth (like our old one but Darren wants a 6 ! it doesnt really matter as long as its in good nic. Once we sort that out then Im sure the festy fever will take hold again.

Will be strange to watch on TV this year and it will be a 2 year Break but Im thinking 2013 could be AMAzinG after a big gap - maybe we will go without Trudi - No i couldnt do that. Anyway there you go


Everybody has him on their minds - everybody knew they would - its been a strange couple of months - Things like this can lay you bare / expose you if you are brave enough? You let it happen and hopefully get through it - I am not depressed and I am surprised at that but I also know that any time that old devil can sneak up on you and this is the time it tends to happen.

Instead of getting him (Joel) a £20 in a xmas card as it would have been if he hadnt been taken from us - Instead im getting a picture plaque (of him) and im going up to where it happend and im going to glue it on a post and im going to put a daffodil bulb in the ground for him - I need somewhere to go - a physical place and maybe the spot where it happened isnt the best place/but maybe it is? but its the closest place to me - I know we could plant something in our garden and make a place to visit there but im not sure I want to be in this house forever and then it would be hard to know that it would not be anymore. So thats my plan if I get it in time before Christmas - its funny what with cremations and such there is sometimes no particular spot to go and im not sure if that is a good thing? - I remember going in my own good time to my Uncles grave when I was a young teenager and just sitting down there with him and I did feel connected. I want somewhere for Trudi and also Jack and his other siblings to be able to go - I know they are working on something but I cant wait too long myself I need somewhere now. Im impatient me. I have a present for his girlfriend who I dont really know that well - I just wanted to get her something from Joel sort of thing on his behalf.

I always remember a Christmas decoration of my mums - one said "Joy" and one said "Noel" and they came apart and so we made "Joel" and it just came to my mind.Joel loved to read infact he remind me of my Brother in that respect - it is not one of my passions - I confess - I wish I liked books but for some reason or another they dont hold my attention. I do not read many non fiction books I perfer biographies - dont know why that is.. anyway I remember on that night seeing the book laid out that he was in the middle of "Hamlet" of all things! I have it on my ds so Im giving it ago - and im enjoying it - so thanks Joel!

I really want to help my sister but I dont know how. I know she has a lot on her plate and with this happening has probably opened a can of worms - I really hope things do get better for her - things will never be the same again but I keep thinking things / relationships should only grow stronger from this - family despite all our flaws / differing personalities we have genes in common, memories and the family that we share our own little kingdoms that need to be expanded and not drawn in to our tiny 4 walls . To find people strengths / weaknesses and build upon try and make things stronger ready for the next one because as we know there always will be a next one (in the family) its just usually someone older but no time is ever a good time to lose someone special so we need to be strong - thats all I keep thinking about -

Im still trying to gather everybody up and shed a bit of light - but it can be messy and it can be daunting - I feel better for explaining to Daryl about my guilt about not seeing them as much at home over the last few years - but of course they were becoming men - with their own groups of friends and of course they always had each other too - I just wanted him to know we are always here for him now 24/7 if he needs us - it was so nice to meet his friends - it made my Birthday having them come and stay over.

Anyway a note about the "inner" kingdom - ( us 3 plus cat ) - Trudi is doing so well with the Diabetes - she sometimes surprises me in such a good way - I couldnt be more proud! Darren has been fantastic too with all this - I know how much this last few months has shaken his world. Like I say I am quietly proud of myself - I know Im doing quite well (for me) so I am giving myself a pat on the back but I think Joel has a part in all this and I feel there is definately a part of him with me now that has changed me a little bit and I hope forever.

Youre Gorgeous Joel - inside and out man ! Youll be forever Young ..... forever with us x.

Whos to reason with the Why - we just have to get on with the Now

Shuang and family are coming to visit so I hope that goes well - im sure it will and then we can get Christmas out of the way lol and see what 2011 has in store for our little kingdom and country too ! ( just to say sorry for any sp mistakes the spell check has gone and walked where has it gone?)


Thinking of You!

Well first can I give a little catch up we went to Glasto with daughter and friend and it went well ... I think - was tough in places but I much prefer having to deal with Heat than Mud/Rain . Trudi's little Chinese friend Shuang left us at the start of the summer holidays - She is back with her family and although its not perfect for them (at the moment anyway) I think it was best for us and Shuang. Trudi seemed to get increasingly uptight and it was going to ruin their friendship - Turns out that she was leading up to getting type 1 diabetes - we don't know exactly when her pancreas finally gave out but it was sometime after her 10th Birthday and her starting year 6. So we spent a few days in hospital her and I . When it happens to you ( a parent ) you cant imagine anything worse - I know the worse it can mean and I know the best it can be (my dad has had it since he was 14 without too much problem up till now) little did I know that a few weeks down the line we would be hit with even more shocking news that puts Trudi's getting diabetes into the bigger picture.

Joel my second eldest Nephew who came to see Trudi in hospital just 2 weeks earlier was on the 13th October hit by a car whilst crossing a busy road to cycle home from his girlfriends house - It happened just up the road form us and the police called us that night - I went to my sister and she said I shouldn't see him she believed he was already gone and I hope/think she was right.. I never heard the extent of his injuries but they did try to do something with him even though he had just 1 percent chance of surviving ( and I don't mean living a full life) - I ended up going home to her little ones with Trudi in tow - I couldn't put her in his bed - it felt wrong so instead I put her on the couch. I waited and watched the last miner being pulled out . I wanted to believe in some hope but I did know that it would take more than that now - I knew it was just the waiting and finally it came and then I went to his room to the art work I had done for him - A gorrilaz painting - with a Joelz Cool badge on it and a manga cel I had got for him another time - his teenage messy bedroom that he shared with his 12 year old brother _ Empty - his Jacket hanging on his bed frame - I came out and waited for My Sister and Husband to come back - Then we all did that night - nobody really slept - My sister in his room, My daughter waking up to ask about him - hes gone I said hes borrowed the moon to get where he needed to go ( it was such a strange night sky that night - even strangers commented on this - but it could have been Steven Spielberg's fault!) to my relief/surprise she settled down with that news. We all waited for the morning to come and the little ones waking to have breakfast and go to nursery - I cant believe my sister drove ( I cant or I would have) and we waited while her husband got back home.

Since then there has been all sorts of emotions - the funeral is over and its been a whole 2 weeks - I am happy its half term as it means my daughter is about with me - and mainly we have appreciated each other as we should. She had a really bad Friday as they broke up as her Head teacher tried to speak to her about going to the funeral - I should have known it would unsettle her after all we know her best so instead she says when coming home - "I don't like this world - its horrible - I want you to kill me! How can it take Joel and give me Diabetes?" - I had her insulin in my hand at the time (it was just before tea) and little does she realize how dangerous that stuff can be - I am so glad that I am doing her shots for her at the moment as it would be scary leaving such a job to her because she needs to know how serious this medicine is but I don't want to give her any ideas either! What i am also getting at is although the diabetes can shorten some peoples lives - she does still has a life to live and we need to make it as good as we can (without spoiling her too much!) and all being well there is hopefully no reason why it shouldn't last a long time.

The whole thing just shakes you up - in good and bad ways - nobody know when there numbers up and to try and live life in a better way should only be a good thing? Yes we will still mess up - we are humans after all but I like to think Joel is all about us and looking out for us and bringing us through it all I hope> Love you and Ill look out for your brothers( and your sister) as best I can OK??


Whoo Hoo

Having a Good time - Shuang our daughters little Chinese friend with us for the time being - mine having strops - am I cruel or what letting a playmate stay with us?? I am completely shattered but you only live once right? I think this sharing torture is good for mine but im doing my best to be fair to all parties! There is a chance that Shaung will come to Glastonbury with us this year . She doesnt like music or too much banging drums and likes too keep scrumtiously clean - Pilton shouldnt be a problem right?? I told her it's the best festival on Earth so .. ill keep you posted



Well it has been - (The lonely bit is a bit of an exaggeration but you always want to put a good title!) No I come out of my slumber round about now and I'm coming out ready for 2010 this time. The whole family is - we are still poor, have no car, just got a washing machine again finally - but none of this matters we are happier in our skins - we have detoxified from the "toxic" friends and I am of proud of my 9 year old (shes not perfect but we are working on it!)

Any way without going into detail should be a good Easter and also really looking forward to Glastonbury - unfortunately probably are only festival this year again - But makes it even more special for being so.



I have been having a pivotal day - Its funny my Chinese friends are on the move again (maybe to Wales) :( as its not worked out here due to a horrible man in the kitchen working with the Husband. So basically he has been very nasty - taking his money, blaming him, making him do all the work in the kitchen and probably even damaging what little property they own. My new friends are the salt of the earth - I don't see why or how some horrible people can be like this - I know power has a lot to do with it but I just don't get how the people doing it seem to have no regrets ever?

Going along with my daughters story she has problems with this friend (not that I consider her that but) which is really upsetting me and now she has picked up an enemy too. My daughter is so soft - this kid is in the year below and is very cocky she has tripped her up since someone yelled that my daughter didn't like her - (which sort of was true but thats because she is very bossy and my daughter cant deal with that) and today she did it again (tripped her). Now its the end of school and I thought - if I don't go now I wont go (and the bully gets away with it) so I did go over to the parent and said look your daughter has tripped my daughter up twice this week and I explained why I thought she may have done it. Maybe the parent will speak to her and give her punishment? (I know thats what I would do if I ever found mine to do such a thing) maybe they don't but at least the kid knows I am on her case!

Anyway they are being taught at school about passive, assertive, aggressive and it kind of struck me Are most people naturally passive or aggressive? - I start to think they are its like the do I fight or flight thing. I know I fall into the former one and sometimes when I lose it I might have a burst of the other!

So there is a course that is run for bullied kids and because I can see where all this is heading and I know it worked well for my nephew so my daughter has sent off the form. Its weird my mum said you should tell her to kick her back but I don't see that as the way to go plus I know she wouldn't be able to do it and if she did it would be my daughter in trouble probably! She just needs to deal with things differently and not take out her pent up frustration on me! and I don't feel I always give her the best advice plus we always disagree so hearing it from someone else she may take it in and try it out.

Heres to a good bank holiday weekend (we need it) taking her lovely friend Shuang on her first camping trip with us (don't think shes ready for Glastonbury yet!)



Really pleased with myself - I did camping in the cold and didn't get riggormortis! I wouldn't say it was the best night sleep - but I did get some and I was able to walk in the morning so I see it as a result. The Bearded Festival was great and laughter always helps - so thanks to my buddy we laughed all night and that seemed to help alot! I am trying to convert her - (she was a raver in her day) there is hope would be really good if she came to Glastonbury. I will leave the tent at home and stick with the Trailer tent because one night on a thin bit of foam was fun 2 might have been less so and 4 (I'm thinking not)


Well i have made the decision not to go and see Jools Holland with other half as he needs to know in time to get someone to go with him - I am in no fit state to do it at the moment - it is so frustrating when this Fibromyalgia gets the better of me - I woke up feeling worse than I went to bed again today and I cant even sit for long hours let alone stand in one spot for 3! so i will have to forget about it - I cant even type today - every muscle and I mean every pretty much is in a locked up spasm - time to force the Doctor to let me try some different medication - I cant carry on like this. Especially when its the kids holidays and we are supposed to be having fun. :D for some reason she wont let me try amitriptyline (sp?)when its what my mum uses and many other sufferers use to good effect. Ive had this thing for over 12 years now and I still feel it rules me not the other way round. I do feel its taken away some of my best years and whats more frustrating is that most people just don't get it and you feel guilty about it -its shit.


kids who'd have em!?

Although she is the most important thing in the world to me she also gives me most of my worries - It is so weird to enter parenthood and to try and get everything right to do things different to the things that your parents did that you thought were not right and in doing so still coming up with problems? No ones a perfect parent and no ones a perfect kid. Some personalities are easier than others but both of them are tough jobs...(being a kid or a parent that is) I am resorting to go and visit the Doctor about my 'angel' in the hope of some guidance as I feel I am banging my head against a brick wall - with things ive tried to resolve her problems as I feel some of the issues need to be worked upon sooner rather than later - I have visions of terrible teenager years - That's when I started to be a problem - shes just started early. Anyway I am not expecting A Doctor to have all my answers either - we are all so complex its like trying to find a right formula sometimes that works and even that works for a bit and then it evolves and stops working and then you have to try and find something else. Anyway onwards we go.


Just found out that Reg Dwight is coming to our village - yes very Vicar of Dibley stuff. I almost want to get a ticket just to see to believe. The Good news is I hope Mercedes Benz world do more acts (that I want to see) it would be great to be able to walk to a venue and not have to worry about getting home/or travel far but it really is a shocker to me. This is the area that we used to kick about in when we were kids/ making camps and ropes down the race tracks to climb and get chased by security guards and now there is going to be music here from time to time :D:) .


+ note

Yes we are seeing the the wood - Darren has had a job offer and its through in black and white - money quite good, distance not bad, car allowance and they called him to see if he wanted a business trip to Rome for a few days in December - :( So things are looking up!! We were not going to cancel Christmas but we were going to dive into our last bit of savings and keep our fingers crossed for next year so this really is a bonus. I'm very proud of him. We may still have to get at the savings as he wont get paid till End of December/Jan if he starts on the 3rd but we are not complaining far from it.

I have shed a bit of lard since going to Canada (not much but its a start) so I'm feeling better for that and started my Open University course too so that's a bit exciting. Oh and our little True is going to be Mary in the school play - something that I never thought id see - shes always got the tiniest part in all of the plays that shes done over the last 3 and a bit years so its really nice that she will get her moment I can see her beaming already and the good thing is she doesn't have to say a word so there will be no nerves.

Not sure how many festivals that we will do this year as we have another expense looming (A wedding in Mexico in May!) but I do intend to do the hush hush one and Endorse it too if we can - only problem is we cant take advantage of any early bird offers not this close to Christmas but as I say not complaining just not used to holding back on this sort of stuff.


Just in the last week Darren's hearing has taken a big dive so much so that I've made him get a Doctors appointment. Every time hes in the house the volume of the Telly Im sure is at maximum now - so much so I cant stand to be in the same room - so hes watching telly upstairs and I'm trying to have normal volumes downstairs or vice versa - I go up if hes watching/listening to something downstairs - and communicating - forget it unless I'm facing him and speaking loud and clear and then he thinks I'm taking the p*ss! I am worried at how its gone quite dramatically in this last week - It had been bad - But now its Terrible. I think even he now would prefer to hear and not worry about the vanity of wearing an aid. Hes been to a hell of a lot of gigs/concerts through his life ( he started when he was about 14 ) Hes now 41 and hes been drumming all that time too - one of his last bands had 3 drummers all pelting away - and he never wore any head gear. I am wondering how its going to affect him in his job too. Especially as he will have to do lots of interviews etc soon. Anyhow let's hope the doctor can sort him out a bit. He loves his music lets hope its not killed his hearing in the process. Hes hoping still that a bit of syringing will be all it will take to sort out the current situation - I hope so but I have a feeling hes going to need a bit more than that.


Still cant believe that we got to Glastonbury and that I got to do almost everything I wanted to. I think the Weather helped to a degree with regard to me not getting so tired well apart from when the mud got so thick and tiring on your boots/legs. Have to say my decision to purchase a trekking pole for me and Trudi really was a good idea and kept me going and Trudi upright in the mud when she couldnt hold my hand. Was a little dissapointed that we left early (cause it was suppose to be my night for going out and having a wander for one thing) but It was for the best only took an hour and a half wait for a Tractor Pull out - got home at about 2 am Monday Morn.

Have to say that we all had a lovely time at Blissfields this weekend just gone - tis lovely and it was so nice to have a Sunny Festival straight after the mud - has really got me in the mood to add even more to my list this summer - would have loved to have tried Latitude but with Trudi's party coming up and her wanting a Wii I think I had better not get carried away.


We got back last Friday but I've only just returned to some normality. We are all worn out in fact Darren probably is the most as he had to push both of us round at some point. He had to drive all the way from Orlando to Nashville and back too. We visited his brother and family who we haven't seen for nearly a year and a half - They have an even better lifestyle over there than they did here now they have 2 big houses and a boat - they are trying to tempt us over but despite having a bigger house I don't think I could be tempted. Nice for a holiday no doubt we will be back next year if funds allow. Got to meet some real hill billys which was cool! Then we drove back to do Disney - It was good and no theme park here compares but id had enough after the 5th day you really need a day on day off there. My favorite is Space mountain/ Darren got to see a Star Wars parade that was probably his fave and Trudi no longer likes Small World than goodness - she loved Splash Mountain- I've just put in my photos 309 good ones - we have met nearly every character I think but even Trudi had had enough and so - I think we all are glad to be back home. Got to Get ready for the Festivals now - Chill the beers and lay the blanket and kick back - I'm actually enjoying the weather back here too... - at the moment - ...so all is good with the spuds!


BNL were fab

Although i diddnt think much of the last album this was a great gig if you like a gig to be fun - This guy Boothby Graffoe? warmed them up - fantastic - real good fun apart from the girl just infront (we were seated) decided that she wasnt up for fun(shed had a few) was going to make our life hell- everytime Darren hooted she went mad - mostly at her partner - things came to a head and her fella told her to go away - so we all had a good time after that. Wish they were doing the festival scene this year but seems not to be. Ahh well. Glad We saw em. Loverlee Guys!

Cant believe we are going to Glastonbury too! Still Shell shocked but ive a feeling its gonna be a good year for us.


I'm thinking this is a good thing Ive been spending too much time at the computer and without echoing everybody else. Starting to get a bit panicky - bear in mind though i have missed out for 2 years! I tried to keep away only to miss something?? this morning?? :) Typical! Nerves are kicking in now. Anyhow Me old fella got 2 free tickets to see this tv show its got bill bailey, p jupitus, Milton Jones, Markus Bridgstocke, Harry enfield?! and Jo Caulfield with Madness thrown in. So i'm hoping it will be good. Just what the Doctor ordered. Then out again to see Barenaked Ladies Friday. Oh and I get a wristband tonight so that will get me in the mood!


Yes went to see them - had lots of beer - must remember those seats for future ref as we had our very own bar (twas above the stairs) Good night - fell asleep on the train luckily only by 2 stops - so taxi home and not too expensive a mistake! just like the old days - had the house to ourselves - Daughter stayed over with Grandparents ... thought all was well

Called in the morning with our hangovers and my baby(6) was sick all night/ high temp no medicine ;) - I wish they had phoned me and brought her home - but as said it probably was best for all - Shes still really ill now. We hardly ever go out just (bad)luck that she had to be ill and need her mum. Mum oblivious and having a good time. Feeling Guilty now Yes. Shes had lots of love since mind and she's definately having day off tomorrow which she doesnt know about.

We are going to see the Barenaked at the end of the month think ill tell them to bring her home for that one if she is ill and wants me. Hope she wants to go again as shes not good with sleepovers.



Im starting to come out of hibernation - and looking forward to it getting warmer. I cant wait to sort my festivals out - im supposed to be organising a trip for the 3 of us over to USA but it really doesnt fill me with excitment like the other trips do. My brother in law moved over there last year and with no sign of them coming back over here its down to us to get there. So Trudi can see her cousins, uncle, aunt - I am also going to let her see the big eared mouse (as that would have been the only other reason for going if the family werent there. The cost is already mounting but I cant be doing with it. The Travelling will be a killer for me as well. Any how once we get that out of the way Im praying that we get the tickets for June its about time we got to go again - we failed the last couple of times.

Problem is our car packed up over Christmas so we bought a cheapy but it has no towbar so Dandy is stranded and cant be used until I get a towbar or I buy a Tent. This is all I can think about at the moment. I wanted to use him at Glastonbury but a tow bar is going to add an extra £150 but I guess if I want a stand up tent with somewhere decent to lie on and warm bags its going to cost that too so I guess we should buy the tow bar - knowing our luck the car will then blow up so this is why I will have to wait until at least April till i make the decision.

Anyhow looking on here and seeing who might be playing and where is cheering me up - somewhat. I want to be sitting in a field somewhere, anywhere - doesnt even have to be hot hot hot - just dry - but not too too cold either - if you get my drift ;)


dj Sasha!

Yes hes a boy -quite an agressive one at that - Im the one he comes to for a cuddle and Im the one he attacks for no reason :huh: - he likes to draw blood while im on the phone by biting inbetween my thumb and finger - i am trying to disway this behaviour with not much sucess as yet - i may have made it worse by not stopping him sooner as he did it with me right from the start but their teeth and claws get sharper and sharper that i dont find it fun anymore. Hes quite good with Trudi at the moment and he hadnt dared try it with darren - But he is starting to get braver and they both have come a croper a couple of times so I am trying to stop him. Hes Sasher the Slasher but I think as he gets outside he will find other things to hone in his prey skills on - he has plenty of toys which he enjoys he just seems to like real flesh :blink: He also hates silly kitten cube food and wants real food or at least something that looks like real food. I fear lots of presents being brought back in the future - I hope not. Hes had all his injections now and Trudi cant wait to try him on a harness which he will hate - but I think hes going to love being out doors. Hes so small still he wont be out on his own till at least February after hes been "done"



well I'm sitting here typing with one hand and kitten in the other. Yes we have a new member of the spud family yesterday evening- Trudis pet so Trudi named - its Sasha I say it as the fellow we got it from said he was 90 percent sure it was girl - which is what we wanted. so will get it checked by a vet this week - shes bonded with us all already - i think she was one of the runts as she is tiny for her age (9 weeks) but we will soon feed her up. I'm in love. :D if it turns out to be a boy it wont be the end of the world - in case anyones wondering.


Well this would have been a blog saying how beautiful Cornwall is. We had a great time - met up with friends and the weather was much better than I expected but i was getting so stiff towards the end that I was also wanting to get home to me own bed. Boy am I in a great state now - even going to have to start on some medication again that I don't believe in in the hope that it might help - make sense of that :rolleyes:

Ive been having terrible trouble with my puter since we got back. A whole week ago and things still arnt right but at least I managed to get back logged in to here eventually and some other places I vacate. This one was really hard and it all stems from being sentimental about an email address :wub: - it was our first one together from our first computer together. It was long and laborious for others to type out including digits just for confusion. It was great. It was a freeserve.co.uk Our first dial up account that came with the computer. Really slow but what fun we had - those were the days and nights - picking up viruses etc, etc,

Anyhow I didn't even know that Orange had taken Wannadoo. Wannadoo at least informed us of changes (apart from being taken by Orange!) and apart from a couple of times to reactivate the account (when we were no longer giving them any money) they were good.

Apparently (now this may or not be true) Darren said he couldn't even call Orange as the number was barred on our phones :D I'm not sure if he meant our home phone ntl or his mob O2 anyhow we couldn't re activate it.

So I sent them an email on their site(Orange) - not quite sure how I did but I did and they did respond at least saying they couldn't reactivate it unless we dialled up or got their broadband. He did give me a link and so as not to screw up I gave it to Darren to try - What happened we got our email for the whole lost week but we then lost all internet connection!

I think I'm liking my old email address less now so its days are numbered but it means I'm going to have to inform everybody of this - I know with a computer it wont be too difficult. But our Ntl email account doesn't even work so we will now have to sort that out before we can change it. We could use our Hotmail i guess temporarily.

Anyway as you can see we now also have internet connection too. So we are back on track - there were no great job offers for Darren in amoungst but he has found a bit of contract work(he got it yesterday :D ) to tide him over till Jan ( I was almost disappointed as I had lots of jobs for him and now they will not be done but hey ho at least we have a bread winner again and he had a whole month off holidaying so hes happy -

My lessons are learned (re:computer)I must write down all my passwords cause my memory is so rubbish and maybe I should do as Darren does and only have 1 for everything although I'm sure you're not supposed to do that - it would make things easier when stuff like this happens.

Edit to say Happy 11th Aniversary Darren - Thanks for the Doughnuts , CD & Flowers - not an oversight - hes only just come in with them and he knows I would have been just as happy with the doughnuts! - gosh this means that the forementioned email is also at least 11 years old too :(


Haven't been doing much but washing/drying clothes and sleeping since we got back on Tuesday. Endorset was really my kind of festival - I like reggae/ska n stuff - but was a little chilly for my condition so as it got into the evenings i needed warming up so Trudi and I would head back for Hot drinks and waterbottles - how sad is that! :P Darren went back for more usually. Really liked their little healing area - keep meaning to go in for a massage but I know once Ive sampled id be wanting more than 1/2 hour it just wouldn't be enough for me! :) and the clay masks for the kids to make on the tree was nice and the wishing tree where Trudi's wish came true. She wanted to meet one of the fellows from Hayseed Dixie - she even got a hug from him made her festival.

On packing up Darren informs me of a problem - our Jockey wheel broke and so I'm thinking :) but he then thinks it may not be so bad. Involves him hoking it up looking quite impressive and me whipping it away and him then putting it on the towbar.

Anyway on we went from there straight to Lymington for the ferry over to Isle of wight to Thorness Bay home of a Butlins type crew of people that Trudi loved last year - I couldn't stand it after a few nights so we took it in turns to chaperone Trudi. We were also camped on a slope along with not being able to level(because of the Jockey wheel) and it really felt like the crooked house - not good for me so to be honest I'm glad to be back in me bed for a few nights although I still feel as if I'm sloping in my bed which is very bizarre :D

Anyway the days were good as IOW has got some pretty little villages, lanes etc and Trudi did some surfing with her dad which was great to watch. All in preparation for our big journey to Cornwall but along with the dodgy jockey wheel I discovered today getting into our car a rubber thing with small bits of metal on it which appeared to be car related. We don't know what it is - or how important it is. Dad thinks it may be suspension related. I think we should get it checked out before we go but there isn't really time so as usual we will go and just see what happens with fingers crossed by me.

Looking forward to Cornwall.

We set off on Sat early hours - just hope my pitch is fairly level when/if I get there. :)


did it work?

Trying to do a picture - just copying others here

these are just not a good idea are they - i hate being in photo's anyway - prefer not to be in any and def not to display - may just put ones of old spud and 'baby' patoto in.

We killed our last camera in Disney Paris so this is a cheepo disposable camera scanned in - not the best quality - no megapixels here - maybe just as well!


;) Went to the tip yesterday and had a result. Said I would look out for a campinggaz 907 bottle for a fellow camper that I dont know. Was going anyway to get rid of rubbish & a helium bottle leftover from my daughters party. So I went investigating around the gas bottles. there were all shapes and sizes. Eventually found one and thought nothing ventured nothing gained so picked it up and walked past the man in his shed - he diddnt notice or diddnt care..(they normally say no or charge I think?) even more pleasing its at least half full! - which now has led me to a dilema - Im sure one of ours is nearly empty but its in me Trailer Tent -


1. Do I contine with my good samaritan original plan and give my gift of a half full gaz cannister to unknown local camper - which should make me feel all mushy inside

2. do I charge her at least £10 for my efforts - She would still be happy

3. Do I wait and put up Trailer Tent later this afternoon -just to check me own cannister and then swap it and give her the empty one? (Free of course!)

I know 1. is the right thing but what would you do??

Update she went to the tip herself and got an empty one for a fiver so shes happy - im even happier - free gas ! any one want a cup of tea/coffee in the morning on Saturday at Endorset?dont know about a fry up yet depends on how Darren feels or who wants to wash up!! :(


Just wrote a little entry 3 paragraphs of rubbish put add entry and managed to lose it all - so Ive gone off it now already - you can tell i have lots of patience - so this time I'm keeping it short and sweet - cause I ain't playing if it disappears again!

List form this time

1. Darren ( Me husband) gets made redundant Next Thursday - so hes a little sad/ apprehensive

2. Friday We pack up the Trailer and head for Sixpenny Handley - so that will be exciting (Must shop for some booze food to pack. :(

3. When we pack up to leave we don't go home we go sailing to the Isle of wight for a week holiday.

4. Come back to a man about the house at least with redundancy money in his pocket otherwise wed be a no income family! :rolleyes:

5.Then that will be it as far as festivals go for the year - unless he gets a top job quick. although we have a nice holiday booked for Cornwall at end of school hols. Which has a huge question mark over it at the mo. The good news if he still hasn't a job then we may as well go n have fun.